That’s right: It’s a hybrid post. What I thought was motion sickness today was really just a migraine set up, so I don’t have it in me to write two separate posts. If you’re just here for the A to Z stuff, it’s at the end, so you can scroll scroll scroll.
Last week was spring break, praise the Lord. I took the entire week off from work: no grading, no emails, no course prep, nothing. It was nice. I spent two days doing some deep reading–in part because I had to limit my screen time, but also because I just wanted to read. The motion sickness/migraine madness meant I unfortunately couldn’t catch up on blogs like I wanted to. However, I did manage to watch Parasite, which broke my brain, and I also started a rewatch of The Bernie Mac Show (both are on Hulu), which is bringing me so much joy. I mean, honestly, there are not enough BMS gifs out there and my heart, it weeps.
These have been hanging out in my Evernote for a while, so it’s time I posted them. Also, there’s at least one of these I don’t necessarily agree with but just found an interesting read because it made me think.
George Bailey dreams of a life perpetually out of reach, always right around a corner he can never quite round. He makes all the responsible choices, the safe ones, the necessary ones, and in exchange gives up nearly all of his youthful ambitions—an adventurous Man of the World becoming, instead, a Family Man stuck back in his old hometown, running the family business. It’s heartbreaking to watch. And worse, it happens to almost every single one of us, in one way or another. — It’s a Wonderful Life?
I just woke up from a 20-minute nap and then my alarm to get ready for bed went off. So I’m not even going to type up what I normally do here because you can all guess. (Starts with “I’m” ends with “tired.”)
Facebook reminds me that I was regretting my life choices at this time last year. That’s because I was teaching an overload and didn’t know up from down or right from left. I am not teaching an overload this semester (and hopefully will not have to again), but I have been feeling overwhelmed. I guess a cross country move and two new preps coupled with four straight hours of teaching four days a week will do that.
I got up to pee but sat back down before I did and I am now regretting that choice. So I guess I get to regret something today, huh?
In extremely personal news (I guess the previous paragraph doesn’t count), I started therapy to help with the BIG CHANGES I’ve made in my life. (They include moving across the country, starting a new job, leaving my entire support network behind, being farther apart from my daughter for the longest we’ve ever been apart, and starting a brand new life in a brand new place from scratch. You know, SMALL THINGS.)
We got to talk about feelings today. It was just as much fun as you might imagine. The short version is that the therapist suggested I print out a feelings list. Because I lost my old one. (Which, you know, is a bit too on the nose metaphorically speaking, if you ask me.)
For those who don’t know, a feelings list helps you name your feelings if you rely on saying things like “annoyed” or “upset” to describe how you’re feeling.
So that should give you a pretty complete picture of me.
Five more weeks until the semester is over. Activate countdown mode.