2020 Birthday Wish List

My birthday is in a week and a half so here is some stuff what I want!

ETA: Someone asked how you could know if someone bought me this stuff, and I guess you can’t, but friends, you could also just get me gift cards to the stores and I will buy the thing myself! Every little bit helps!

1. A NEW DESK

Okay, I desperately need a new desk to improve my work from home situation. My current desk was fine when I only used it occasionally, but it is too shallow to comfortably get any work done now, especially since my new monitor winds up being too close to my face. I need this monitor to be further back and I need more surface space for putting books and/or papers.

Something like this perhaps? Maybe this one? Or this one? Basically, I like the clean lines and that it looks kind of invisible and the LEVELS. But I am also open to other suggestions! Because your girl also really needs storage that is largely invisible.

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It’s Monday & I’ve Forgotten How to Teach #IMWAYR

No joke. I submitted grades on Saturday for the end of our spring semester. I was doing prep for my summer class that starts Wednesday, and I could not figure out what I had done in the class before. Or what I was planning to do. What are assignments? How does one organize a class? Part of it is that I’m teaching the class online for the first time. But the other part was that my brain was seriously just like, “I don’t know, man. You tell me.”

I said to my daughter OUT LOUD, “I am a terrible teacher who doesn’t know how to teach.”

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It’s Monday and I’m weary #IMWAYR

I have gotten a couple of text messages from friends–white friends–asking me how I’m doing or how I’m holding up, and the answer is the same for all.

I’m angry and I’m weary. I’m angry and I’m weary and I’m tired of talking about being angry and weary. If you want to know the depths of my anger and weariness, I’ve found that the following three Instagram posts pretty well encapsulate where I am. The first one is a short video (three minutes) and a transcription has been helpfully provided here. The other two speak for themselves.

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C is for Closed Captioning #PandemicAlphabet

I don’t really use closed captioning–except when I’m watching The Great British Baking Show or some other British show. That’s just because I don’t speak British, so the subtitles are necessary. I mean, honestly, what are they saying? I do not know.

My daughter, on the other hand, always has the closed captioning on when she watches TV. It helps her focus, she says. Without it, she won’t really know what’s going on.

But, for me, it’s hard for me to focus when closed captions are on. I read instead of watching. It is very distracting.

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Z is for Zoom #AtoZChallenge

Okay, I don’t really care about the Zoom platform itself, but I’m sure everyone has been hearing about it since it has been the go-to video chat service, especially for meetings. I personally much prefer FaceTime, but maybe I just don’t have that many friends. Or I prefer a more intimate gathering of friends? I mean, whatever, you all know I just needed something for Z.

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Y is for You #AtoZChallenge

You, meaning all my friends and readers.

Listen, this pandemic sucks. The worst part is that people are actually dying, which is why we’re in self-isolation in the first place. It’s sometimes easy for me to lose sight of that when I’m sitting in my air-conditioned apartment, sad because I’m limited in my movements. (I mean, it goes deeper than that, of course, but you get what I’m saying here.)

But here’s the thing, and you know it’s coming:

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X is for Xbox #AtoZChallenge

I bought an Xbox 360.

When I bought it, my one friend said, “Oh, Lord. Now I know we’re not going back to work any time soon.”

My other friend said, “Why do YOU have an Xbox?”

There are two reasons:

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W is for White Noise Machine #AtoZChallenge

I was going to write a post extolling the virtues of my white noise machine before the pandemic started. My best friend and her (now) ex-husband got it for me for Christmas. I wanted it to help me sleep on the nights the silence was too loud, and it is pretty good for that alone.

My daughter and I are in a one-bedroom apartment and having a white noise machine pre-pandemic was a godsend. For one thing, we’re on opposite schedules, which meant she and her friend would be hanging out here in the middle of the night when I was headed to bed. The white noise machine would drown out their late night TV and movie watching as well as their loud conversations about said TV and movie watching.

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U is for Uncertainty #AtoZChallenge

Okay, so I actually 100% hate uncertainty. It is probably one of my least favorite things ever, and this stupid pandemic is full of uncertainty. We don’t know exactly when it’s going to end. We don’t know exactly how it’s spread. We don’t know exactly how long it incubates. We don’t know anything! It sucks!

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I don’t watch Rick and Morty but perfect pic is perfect (source)

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Q is for Quiet Time #AtoZChallenge

I have been really busy since the pandemic started. I am always really busy but it’s been shocking just how busy I am even when I’m not leaving home to go anywhere. A lot of it is my fault: I fill my days talking to people and watching TV and being online.

A couple of weeks ago, though, I went for a walk and didn’t turn on music, or call anybody, or listen to an audiobook or a podcast. I just walked and took in what was around me.

One day, my daughter turned off the TV and said, “I’m tired of TV.” And that was that.

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