It’s Tuesday & my therapist got fired

Or, as the person who called me to tell me said, “terminated, effective immediately.”

Oh, and then a day or so later, we found out my daughter’s therapist was also fired–excuse me, terminated, effective immediately. So I’m sure you can imagine what a wild ride the last week and a half has been.

And how!

The good news is that neither were fired for patient violations of any kind. The bad news is no one will tell us exactly why they got fired, and all we can guess is that it had something to do with some kind of disagreement or something with whoever runs/owns the practice. The more pressing bad news is that my daughter and I are both out of therapists, and our therapists are out of jobs–in the middle of a global pandemic. Although, I guess they aren’t actually out of jobs since they’re both still practicing, but we are still out of our therapists that we both really, really liked because now they no longer take our insurance. So that sucks.

But, yes, because they were part of a practice, we are still patients of the practice, but we both still have to go through the business of readjusting to new therapists. I have liked everyone at the practice so far, so I have faith that it will be okay, but, man, it was a real bummer to get that news. Also, the person in charge of the practice called us both personally to check on us, and I asked her how we knew it wouldn’t happen again, and she said the fact that it even happened is rare so, basically, it BETTER not happen again. Or something to that effect.

Imagine working on your abandonment issues and this happens. What a doozy.

So, if you want to know what else I’ve been up to for the past week and a half or so besides course prep for work, there you go. Oh, I also bought a couch, but I guess that’s a topic for a different post. And here’s where I normally tell you what I’ve been watching and/or reading, but that feels out of place here as well.

W is for Water Aerobics #PandemicAlphabet

At the beginning of the pandemic, the Y closed, which was pretty bad, obviously, since as mentioned in previous entries, I was going to the gym 3-4 times per week for water aerobics and/or yoga and/or step aerobics (which I had recently decided to get back into because I figured I needed to do some actual exercise on land since gravity doesn’t care if you spend all of your time in the water when it’s time to reckon with moving your body on land). So, yes, I had a pretty good routine going, and I was bummed about the closing, but I decided to make the most of it and do the deal and start walking. And walking was (is!) great, really, but, you know, not the same as getting in the pool or even doing some more aerobic land exercises.

The thing is I’m pretty terrible at personal accountability when it comes to exercise on my own. The lack of structure means I can do it whenever I want, but whenever I want turns into the next day and then the next day and then the next day. I get bored easily when I work out by myself because every exercise feels like it takes a long time, so even though I intend to do an hour, I wind up just doing twenty minutes…if that. Also, the furniture is in the way and sometimes my XBox doesn’t load and on and on it goes.

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At the beginning of the pandemic, the Y closed, which was pretty bad, obviously, since as mentioned in previous entries, I was going to the gym 3-4 times per week for water aerobics and/or yoga and/or step aerobics (which I had recently decided to get back into because I figured I needed to do some actual exercise on land since gravity doesn’t care if you spend all of your time in the water when it’s time to reckon with moving your body on land). So, yes, I had a pretty good routine going, and I was bummed about the closing, but I decided to make the most of it and do the deal and start walking. And walking was (is!) great, really, but, you know, not the same as getting in the pool or even doing some more aerobic land exercises.

The thing is I’m pretty terrible at personal accountability when it comes to exercise on my own. The lack of structure means I can do it whenever I want, but whenever I want turns into the next day and then the next day and then the next day. I get bored easily when I work out by myself because every exercise feels like it takes a long time, so even though I intend to do an hour, I wind up just doing twenty minutes…if that. Also, the furniture is in the way and sometimes my XBox doesn’t load and on and on it goes.

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P is for Prediabetes #PandemicAlphabet

To be fair, my doctor didn’t call it prediabetes, but I’m calling it prediabetes. What else is it considered when you’re told your blood sugar is elevated and that you need to limit sweets and simple carbs–oh yeah, and also possibly consider going on a medication to slow the progression to diabetes?

If it walks like a duck and talks like a duck, it might be a prediabetic duck.

So, of course, because diabetes (Type 1 and 2) runs in my family, I promptly freaked out and then I had to do some deep soul searching to decide if I was going to take him up on the medication offer or not. The answer, of course, was no. But that does mean, of course, that I have had to make changes to my diet and increase my exercise.

The real question of course is “How does this qualify for the pandemic alphabet?”

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D is for Dress #PandemicAlphabet

In my H is for Hygiene #AtoZChallenge post, I said that I have to shower and/or wash my face every day in order to start my day and focus. The other thing that goes along with that is getting dressed in actual clothes.

At the very beginning of the pandemic, that meant a t-shirt and leggings. Unfortunately, all of my leggings are not of the LuLaRoe, soft waistband sort, so I got tired of that really quickly. There’s also the issue that the Safer at Home order started in mid-March, and it got hot here not long after. Add to that the fact that I usually wear dresses to work every day, and the whole leggings every day thing was not it.

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It’s Monday & This Post Is a List #IMWAYR

I think I have too many books to read. No, I know I have too many books to read. And by read, I mean have finished by a deadline because I am in two book clubs and also clearly hate myself. I mean, obviously, I want to be in these book clubs and want to be reading the books but also, like, why do I do these things? I do not know.

Anyway, since my last post, I did some stuff:

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It’s Monday & My Birthday Is Friday

So I made a wishlist: 2020 Birthday Wish List.

Also, I am having a hard time remembering what I did this past week. Oh, I know why. It’s because I spent the first part of the week prepping my summer course and the rest of the week recuperating. I also participated in a virtual coffee date through the #RaiseThePercentage incentive and had a fun phone conversation and then a work date with a friend of mine. Oh and fun (unexpected) conversations with other friends! So that was nice.

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2020 Birthday Wish List

My birthday is in a week and a half so here is some stuff what I want!

ETA: Someone asked how you could know if someone bought me this stuff, and I guess you can’t, but friends, you could also just get me gift cards to the stores and I will buy the thing myself! Every little bit helps!

1. A NEW DESK

Okay, I desperately need a new desk to improve my work from home situation. My current desk was fine when I only used it occasionally, but it is too shallow to comfortably get any work done now, especially since my new monitor winds up being too close to my face. I need this monitor to be further back and I need more surface space for putting books and/or papers.

Something like this perhaps? Maybe this one? Or this one? Basically, I like the clean lines and that it looks kind of invisible and the LEVELS. But I am also open to other suggestions! Because your girl also really needs storage that is largely invisible.

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It’s Monday & I’ve Forgotten How to Teach #IMWAYR

No joke. I submitted grades on Saturday for the end of our spring semester. I was doing prep for my summer class that starts Wednesday, and I could not figure out what I had done in the class before. Or what I was planning to do. What are assignments? How does one organize a class? Part of it is that I’m teaching the class online for the first time. But the other part was that my brain was seriously just like, “I don’t know, man. You tell me.”

I said to my daughter OUT LOUD, “I am a terrible teacher who doesn’t know how to teach.”

f-this-im-making-meth

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It’s Monday and I’m weary #IMWAYR

I have gotten a couple of text messages from friends–white friends–asking me how I’m doing or how I’m holding up, and the answer is the same for all.

I’m angry and I’m weary. I’m angry and I’m weary and I’m tired of talking about being angry and weary. If you want to know the depths of my anger and weariness, I’ve found that the following three Instagram posts pretty well encapsulate where I am. The first one is a short video (three minutes) and a transcription has been helpfully provided here. The other two speak for themselves.

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C is for Closed Captioning #PandemicAlphabet

I don’t really use closed captioning–except when I’m watching The Great British Baking Show or some other British show. That’s just because I don’t speak British, so the subtitles are necessary. I mean, honestly, what are they saying? I do not know.

My daughter, on the other hand, always has the closed captioning on when she watches TV. It helps her focus, she says. Without it, she won’t really know what’s going on.

But, for me, it’s hard for me to focus when closed captions are on. I read instead of watching. It is very distracting.

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